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Name: Sue
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Bloomington-Normal
Birthday: 3/25/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm obsessed with marching band, Drum Corps, French Horn, Jazz, anything partaning to music, and of course my friends.
Expertise: Photography. Not very many people know this but i can take quite good pictures. Just don't ask me to be in any of them.Look me up in facebook!
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  susapoo
MSN: susamaphone
Member Since:
9/8/2005
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| Well, it has been forever since i have posted. SO there is a lot of catching up to do. But i'm not going to do it all right now. I'm going to just talk about the present.
So presently I am...
1. Mourning the loss of yet another friend. David Hirsch, 20 years old, was one of the first people that I met here at ISU. We worked together, laughed together, hung out, watched movies, made fun of our stupid manager, did theater stuff, and many other things. He was an incredible man, extremely caring and understanding. He truly made me happy every time I saw him. Tragically his life was ended on October 24, at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. David was crossing a railroad crossing and was struck by a train. I don't have an answer as to why he did not see or hear the train coming, I just know that it was just an accident. There is no explanation. So I have to move on and remember everything amazing that he was to me. I'll miss him. Cause I already do.
2. I once again am trying to put myself out there in the dating world. I have a crush, as most girls do. And therefore my efforts are towards this person. But it's a little more dangerous this time. Seeing as he's a bit older. Anyway I'll keep you posted.
3. I am practicing. I don't think that I have ever practiced sooo much in my life. It's a good thing though. Yay music majors!
ok that's it for now!
ttyl!
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I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
I's all the same
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
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| YAY I'M NO LONGER A TEENAGER!!!!!!!! a couple of days ago was my birthday and yet again my mother is capable of ruining the simplest thing. My brother came over for the weekend and my dad and sister came down on my birthday. It was really nice seeing them all again. But, where was my mother? In the hospital.. For attempted suicide. Well that's ok... it's akward when she's here anyway. SO YAY I'M NO LONGER A TEENAGER!!!!!!!!! LOVE AND HUGS sue | | |
| So again i find myself in a weird funk of a mood. This year has been one of the most difficult years in my life... School is stressing my out beyond all belief as well as the looming thought that i'm just not good enough. I feel behind and that I just can't catch up. Not to mention all of the issues that I'm dealing with at home; I just wish that every thing would just slow down. I wish that my mom didn't suck, and that my dad didn't have to deal with her bs. I wish that I wasn't seriously doubting my faith, even if Pastor Bob said that If I was questioning it then I must have it because I'm thinking about it. I don't think that I agree with that. For some reason or another I still haven't quite dealt with Sonya's death. In some ways I feel like I let her down by not calling her enough or talking to her enough and being a chicken and being unable to actually say goodbye. It's hard to live with the fact that I was to scared to see her laying in her coffin at her visitation to actually say good by. I was surrounded her friends and family and they all had the courage to see her, but for me even the sight of her under the orange tinted light, from like a million miles away was just too overwhelming. Then my parents didn't let me go to her funeral. That just crushed me. Aparently I hadn't even shown to my parents that her friendship meant more to me than just an aquaintance. So even almost two years after her death I still haven't dealt with it. I have so much guilt. I wish I could rewind and show my love in better ways. Nobody could have known that she would be gone so soon. I just miss the simplicity of life. Before all this got messed up. Before sonya died. Before I moved and had to leave all my friends behind. Before everything horrible that has happend in this year even was possible. But I can't. I just have to move on and learn from the lessons that God is trying to show me. Even if I am doubting wether or not God and I actually have a relationship. I guess I just have to sit and wait. For my life to start again. Or to complete the chapter that just hasn't been complete. For now I'm just stuck. | | |
| Alright so it's christmas time. The time for happiness and
cheer. The time for glad tidings to you. Well here are my
christmas wishes.
5. To visit Sonya's grave.... i've never been there to see her and I miss her.
4. To make sure everyone is happy and has fun.
3. To have my parents' divorce go quickly and smoothly so the crap can end.
2. To sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
1. To get a call or message or maybe if i'm really lucky, a visit from a certian someone. 
ok well I hope you all have a safe and wonderful christmas.
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